Living with BPD -2

Publié le 23 juillet 2025 à 21:53

I had an episode on Saturday.

A violent sudden urge came over me to destroy my own self. After a good day feeling useful at the office and enjoying a burlesque show.

I thought this was over now, but no.

I have a disorder, a chemical imbalance of some sort I correct with daily intake of medicine. I am sharing this because I am scared sometimes. And I need support and understanding. And to be best understood requires communication.

Do you sometimes experience a total lack of control, like your body is finally reacting to its nervous system being overwhelmed, shot, and it feels like you're imploding?

I have. It had not happened in a long while, but it happened again yesterday.

I woke up the next morning at 11.22am, feeling foggy and sad and scared. Overwhelmed and tired. And this painting came out.