{Insert verb here}-ing the Pain away

Shaky Ground

Volatile Mind

Now that I have shared my recent artwork as per usual, let's talk.

Lately, I have been experiencing sharp pains in my legs, and then it goes away and I'm left to pick up where I left off. The thing is, I went to the NHS and they've prescribed strong painkillers and a note saying I am unfit to work. Wonderful. Like that is what I need to survive, a sick note. 

Basically what that means is that my mobility is and has been impaired since my recent fall and surgery, and I am no longer able to "work", whatever that means. I feel like I'm always working, or worrying about work, that worry is exhausting. 

Then you add the pain, rendering me unable to actually do the things I work towards and worry about. 

Feeling a bit lost in London, 5 months in, but I would still rather be here than stagnating in France, longing for here. 

I am here to stay, that is for sure. I might, however, have to go back to France for a bit to have the screws in my legs removed by the same surgeon who took care of me over the past 4 years. 

So what else is there to say, apart from hey, if you're reading this, how about a sign?

I DO NOT NEED YOUR PITY

I DON'T NEED YOU TO FEEL SORRY FOR ME.

I AM STRONG ENOUGH.

I WANT TO KEEP BEING FREE

FROM PAIN AND EMOTIONAL TURMOIL.

KEEPING MY BOUNDARIES IN PLACE AND LOOKING AFTER MYSELF,

AS BEST AS I POSSIBLY CAN.